Janelle Ann Kidman was the actress’s only living parent. Her father, Dr. Antony Kidman, died in September 2014. “So life is, whew,” she told GQ. “It’s definitely a journey. And it hits you as you get older.” Kidman admitted that it’s been a difficult last few months, calling it “a wake up at 3 a.m. crying and gasping kind of thing.”

Nicole Kidman is reflecting on one of the most difficult aspects of getting older. In a new interview with GQ to promote her forthcoming movie Babygirl, in which she stars opposite Harris Dickinson, Kidman discussed the reason she's started experiencing sleep issues.